Feeling Broken

The LORD is near to the brokenhearted And saves those who are crushed in spirit – Psalms 34:18

 As I write this blog post I feel, so saddened. My heart feels saddened. And I Have no reason to be. My life really is blessed. I have a wonderful husband and an amazing son. We are healthy, happy, safe, warm, and want for nothing. At least not material possessions. But I know that I so feel that our family would be complete with another. It has been almost 3 years since the vasectomy reversal and after many many attempts, we still fail to succeed. So after I sent James off to work and Noah off to school. I truly broke down. In the bathtub, crying like I would never heal. All I can think and pray to go to please send us a baby, not just me but James and Noah. Noah has been wanting and praying for a sibling for so long. And I feel like I am not a good enough mother or wife to be blessed with another child. I am trying my best. Or maybe I am not a good enough Christian, or good enough person. But I do know God has a plan for us, and I repeated that over and over. But I just wish he would reveal that his timing is now. I just ask for his comfort to get me through not just the happy times but the hard times, the broken times. I pray that I see his light soon. I pray that this blessing does happen. I have seen miracles, healing and love through Jesus, I just pray that at some point I see our healing in this area. I felt Like Sarah, Hannah and Elizabeth, on knees weeping, crying out for God to bless their womb.

 He heals the brokenhearted And binds up their wounds. – Psalms 147:3


 I know God will heal this wound I feel we are carrying. That we are all carrying. I pray for my husband, because I know he feels like he has failed. I pray for Noah that he does not feel alone when he yearns for a sibling. I pray that He heals us and blesses us with what we have been praying for. Am I a bad Christian for praying for this. But I know I need to keep my faith, trust in the Lord, because I know when he does bless us with a baby it will truly be such a loving miracle he has brought us.


 In Christ,

 Carlise

Manic Monday!

Hello My Loves,

We had such a great day yesterday going to the Apple Hill Farm in Concord, NH. It was about an hour and a half from our house. It was a lovely drive. Today is a holiday so James is home. This weekend was rare as he didn't have to work all weekend. It was amazing to have him home or good to not have to rush from football game to football game to check on his various color guards. So it was nice to have him to ourselves.

Anywho, we went to pick apples. We had a blast. Now I have to figure out what to do with my bunch of apples I have. Any apple recipes are appreciated! So here are some pictures from yesterday!

DAILY TIDBITS:

• Coffee tastes so good this morning... I think it is because it was freezing last night!
• I need to get going on all these apples. I guess pintrest will be my friend on recipes.
• I can't wait to get my hair done!
• We had to turn on heater on for the first time this season. WOW!
• Off to the gym. I look like a fatty in the pictures. 

Love and Blessings, 

Carlise

Happy Birthday America!!

Hello, I thought I would blog, but I am working on one that is fairly long. Also I have a giveaway i am working on... I am so excited about it. But anywho. I just wanted to say HAPPY 237th Birthday AMERICA!!  Also where would be without those who continue to keep us Free!! Thanks to all who serve. Especially my handsome hubby... Love You James

Going to leave you with some pictures of my hubby!